Our life is chaos. Seriously, it is. And I love it. Our pictures are blurry, our house is messy, my kids are usually sticky.
Lately I've been learning to accept what works for us and to not feel ashamed of the things that help get us through hard days. I've been dealing with such mom guilt and anxiety ever since the girls were born, and I think that's something that almost every mom can relate to, especially in the age of Instagram. For example, I've always been embarrassed to post too much of the girls watching tv, or what food they're eating if it's not super healthy, or if they're sticky from head to toe. I guess I was afraid of judgement, to not have a perfect Instagram feed or make perfect decisions all the time, I don't even know. It sounds so silly but for so many of us, this guilt and pressure is REAL.
It occurred to me kind of out of nowhere over the last few weeks (probably because I've been watching too much This Is Us, let's be real), that life is short and I really should not spend a single second fretting about what other's might think or say about my journey. My family and I are living a kind life, we are caring to those who are around us, and we share authenticity and genuine moments. That is what humanhood is about to me. Loving and being loved.
I can't wait to watch these kiddos grow up and see who they are going to be, what they are going to love, the impact they're going to make. Being a mother is so dang fulfilling, even when it means racing through the grocery store with a full cart to check out before you have not 1 but 2 full blown meltdowns. Even when you watch Moana all the way through so that you can cook meals and tidy up uninterrupted. Even when you cook food for your kids all day and realize come 5pm you haven't had so much as a cracker all day long.
Motherhood is pure fulfilment for me, and I feel so lucky.
Sorry for the emotional posts these days, This Is Us is actually killing me!!!!!! I love it. It's given me so many realizations and given me a new appreciation for my family and my incredible husband. If you haven't watched it you simply have to!!!!!!! Beware, it will crack open your insides and let all of your emotions poor out every. single. time.
I hope life is good for you, whoever you are! I hope you are proud of yourself and find fulfilment in the mundane, it truly is a game changer.