Life Lately 23.01.16

Well, these posts usually start with "life kinda got crazy..." and it did. Again. And my feelings are starting to run wild. I'm inspired, overwhelmed, excited, and even more overwhelmed. Last weekend was my birthday, and I had a little gathering and it was so wonderful. I invited some friends that I hadn't seen in a while, and some friends that have recently been my rocks. A few unfortunate things happened, but over all, I ended the night so grateful to have the people I have in my life. I think my feelings that trickled into this week started there.

The Monday after my birthday party I started a new job, which is always so terrifying to me. I haven't had a new job in over 4 years, because I've been working at the same two places part time while I've been attending University. Now that I've scaled back on my course load at school, I wanted to get another job to fill up some of my hours, and so we can save up more money to build our new house in the country somewhere.

Also, we had our little baby cat, Maisy, fixed this past week, and her incision got infected, so we had to take her back in for antibiotics, and she has been a little conehead for the past week and a half, it is so so sad. She'll have to have the cone on for a while longer, because she can't stop licking at her incision. I just felt so so bad for her, but she is doing just fine!

Basically, I was a ball of stress. We're talking a huge, compulsive anxious mess. It was really hard, and I think most of it was just the uncertainty of my life. I hate not knowing. Not knowing if I'll like the job, if I'll get in trouble, what to wear, how to act, what's allowed, what my hours will be, if I'll be able to handle it... Looking back, it seems so silly, but tell me that in the heat of the moment and I'll crumple into a mess of tears on the floor.

All in all, the week at my new job was great. The people are so wonderful, and I love the passion of the office. However, I ended up working 50 hours that week between all three jobs. It was hard to get outside with the doggies (who definitely felt the lack of exercise...), to keep my home the way I like it, to write my little heart out, and to cook for my husband (and to hang out with him, of course). It was hard, but today... Today I feel incredible.

This management of my time has left me feeling some kind of invincible. I've made new decisions for my life, and I'm left feeling empowered. I'm about to draft up some new blog posts because I'm just so excited!!

Enough of my blabbering, here are a few pictures from this week! Make sure you check out my Instagram to see more of the daily stuff that doesn't make it on here!

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The last picture of my fruit haul will make so much sense in my next post, so stay tuned for a little bit more about my diet!

I hope you're taking good care of yourself, dearest friends! Just know that it does get better. You'll see the sun soon.

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A Memory

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Childhood brings back so many memories for me. I can remember my big sister and I dressing up my little brother like a girl, putting hair products in his short blonde boy hair, and dressing him in our dresses that our mom made for us... the girls. I can remember my sister and I putting pigtails in my dad's short, military cut hair. I remember him braiding our hair. These memories are so special to me, but there are some that I carry with me every day. One memory I remember the most vividly was when driving in the car with my mom, listening to the radio, I asked, "Momma, why are all the songs about love?" Her response sticks with me every day of my life: "Well, can you think of anything more important?"

I don't remember if I replied or not, but gosh, her answer still gives me chills. When it comes down to it, when there is nothing else left, love is what will bring us all back to life.

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Some day when my kids ask me questions like these I will remember my mother's words and let the love flow through me. The most important lesson was taught to me that day with my mother's simple words, and I have been trying to live by those words every day. To grow a little love. To bring love into the little things. To be in love with life.

These are my thoughts today, maybe one day soon I'll get back to posting actual pictures of my life but it's just SO COLD outside that I've been hibernating and just spending time with my thoughts. Anyways, I hope you can find some love in your life today, and that you remember the most important things in life are grown from love.

Take good care, lovelies!

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Be Fearless

I found this quote on Amanda Watter's instagram and oh my if this quote doesn't describe my life's purpose than I don't know what does! It just spoke right to my soul. You can visit her blog at www.mamawatters.blogspot.com. Her words are like magic, I have no doubt that you will feel touched by what she has to say! be fearless2

For me, this quote means so much. It means to move past your anxiety. To move past what other people think about what you're doing. To simply take charge and do what makes you the happiest regardless of what others might think of you. To find happiness. To break out of what holds you back. To be fearless.

But not the kind of fearless that means the absence of fear. The kind of fearless that is pursuing your dreams despite the crippling fear that you feel. This kind of fearless is hard. It is exhausting. It is passionate. It is rewarding. It is love. And isn't that what we all crave? To grow love in the most unlikely of places? To grow love in despite of fear?

So fight for what sets your soul on fire. Find the little victories in the love that you were able to cultivate. Be proud of every inch of your being. Be strong. Pursue. Love. Be fearless. Because you are worth it. Your soul is worth it.

Take good care, lovelies.

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